Today is anther day - not much better than the last but here it is. I don't know why but I am having a hard time lately with something. I think I know what it is, but I am not 100% certain I want to face it. I think there will be a point (very soon) where I will need to. I'm just not ready to do it yet.
So until that point I will try and remain positive and look forward to my adventures coming up this weekend. The Gunks - please provide solace to me.
Tomorrow T$ and I will head out to the New Paltz area for some climbing, riding and hanging out. There is definitely some anxiety associated with this impending trip, I am however forcing myself to believe it will be amazing...and I know it will. I just wish my head wasn't so fuzzy with my personal crap.
I also know I need all of my focus to ride well and climb hard. For me any physical activity I engage in must be paired with focus. Without focus I end up making stupid mistakes, which in turn makes me feel like I am failing...or I just end up hurting myself. Either way - it's no good. So, tonight, I am on a mission to clear my head, shed my anxieties and go into tomorrow with a refreshed mind and positive outlook that is ready to kick some ass. Any ideas on how to do this? Today I'm drawing a blank...